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He already has a video of me giving him a blow job.And he knows I'm his whore. That's part of my concern. Am I already too whorish, that a boudoir shoot is just kinda worthless? Hmmm. I'm getting excited about it though and at the same time can't wait for it to be over with. His birthday isn't until Christmas so I gotta wait that long to see is reaction.

I will post any pics that turn out ok.

Beforehand, I pictured myself totally rocking it out and being sexy and unreserved and applying all of my ANTM watching skills but it sooo didn't work like that. I think I got down the smiling with my eyes thing though. I was probably very rigid, very stiff, reserved, and awkward. I wasn't confident. I didn't change up my poses or expressions as much as I should have or wished I had. The pictures without a doubt suffered from my choking. I saw a couple..a couple on the other hand did look promising. I will get to see a sample of the retouched ones later on in the week.

The photographer was really happy and excited a few times at how well at least what she saw was looking, so hopefully I didn't just drop a large amount of money for crappy pics. I just wish I had done exactly what I imagined myself doing when planning this out. If anyone ever does this, that is my advice to you. BE CONFIDENT and don't blow it.

Her husband kept coming in and out of the house too! That was also weird. He didn't see anything, I don't think..but it was a little disturbing. LOL and she played cheesy music in the background. I almost wanted to tell her to turn it off. I'm sure it was to help me get comfortable or feel sexy but it was kinda weird. It was a lot of Rhianna...but just a weird mix tape sorta thing.

Sigh, overall, I'd like to do it over but properly this time. OMG I totally did cliche stuff where I posed on like a fur blanket or something. But I also did some things I'm proud of. We went to the beach at one point because I wanted to pose with a surf board (my bf is a big surfer). It was a little chilly but there were people out and I had to pose topless really quick on a somewhat populated beach. This old guy was fishing maybe 20 feet away. I also got to pose nude in a really pretty garden. As long as those two pictures turn out well, I'll be happy.