Julie tries to talk the other girls into forming an all girl alliance.
<Julie joins Ashley, Natalie, and Andrea when they're talking on the beach>
Julie: Can I throw something at you guys? I'm just gonna put it in your brain. I know you guys are loyal, because I've been the same, but if you guys ever wanna do a female merge, you have my vote. It's there for you. Are you guys just gonna let Rob win, or...
Andrea (solo): Julie approached Ashley, Natalie, and I, and about having a female merge type of alliance. It actually kind of makes sense to keep Julie around, because she's not a big physical threat, as opposed to the other guys. There was a part of me that considered what Julie had to say to us.
Ashley: Sucky situation being on this side of the numbers, because we like you.
Julie: I can see where we'd be real good friends. <they tell her they can still be friends> If you guys have any voice, can you try to keep me til last?
Ashley: We'll do our best.
Andrea or Natalie: We will, Julie.
Julie: Cause I wanna be here and be miserable as long as I can (laughs).
Julie (solo): The Ometepe tribe is so loyal, but I know the girls like me, so I'm hoping I'll be the last Zapatera left, and then maybe someone will wanna start playing, maybe someone will start having their own strategies. They need to get rid of Rob. They need to get rid of Grant. They need to get rid of those two strong guys to have a chance to win.
Julie: So keep your mind spinning, with ideas.
<they tell her goodbye as she goes back to camp>
Julie (solo): Hopefully I'll fit in there somewhere. There's still hope, there's still game left. There's still fight left in me, for sure. Until the end I'm still gonna fight. There's gotta be some way out of this mess.
My Fate is in My Hands
Julie is happy to be on Redemption Island, where she is now in control of her fate.
"Tribal last night, for one, was ugly. We got back into the whole race issue, which was uncomfortable. But it was a good Tribal. A blindside for me. I did not expect to be voted off last night. I thought for sure Steve or Ralph would be voted off last night. I'm a 50-year old woman, not a threat to anyone. But thinking about it, Rob might have thought myself and the girls might have formed an alliance. Whatever the reason, I'm actually happy to be here at Redemption. Getting away from that poison at camp - Phillip is poison - my fate is in my hands now, instead of somebody else's. I like that. I like being in somewhat control."
"I'm disappointed I was voted off. I was hoping to be the last of the Zapatera. I'm thinking the longer I stayed with our big, huge, happy family, the better chance I would have had of forming an alliance. I'm still in a good place. I'm not out of the game yet. I have a second chance here at Redemption. Depending on how I do at the challenges and duels, I'm not out of it yet. The fate is in my hand's instead of somebody else's. It's encouraging."
"Treemail came this morning. Got to find out where treemail was. And I got my luxury item. My sarong. It's from a race I do in Hawaii. My team is over in Hawaii while I'm doing this here. I chose this as my luxury item so I could keep them in mind while they're racing and I'm here surviving. I was so happy to see something from home. It's made my heart happy. I'm excited about wearing it today, to the duel."
Julie the Day After
Julie reflects on her time in the game, the day after she lost the duel on Redemption Island.
"I'm leaving Survivor with so much more than I ever dreamed of. I came here for the money, period. Not for the adventure, not to be on TV, not for any of that. I just came here for the money, because at home I'm in a financial whirlwind. What I'm leaving with Survivor is worth so much more than money can buy. I didn't come here to make friends, and I've made some incredible lifetime friends."
"I felt like I was here at this Survivor for a reason, that God brought me here. Now I'm gonna go home, with a renewed faith. I'm gonna go find a church. Money can't buy that. I'm real excited about that, and what I'm taking home."
"Coming into this game, I was cold-hearted. I was gonna be the backstabber, I was gonna take names. Like I said, by the second day, I had met people where I was like, 'Oh I'd be happy if you won the million dollars, 'Oh, I'd be happy if YOU won the million dollars.' I go, 'What the heck happened to me?' I went from an animal cutthroat to this real nice, soft (laughs) person. The guys at work - I'm a firefighter - would never believe that was me. I did a real 180 in personality here."
"Looking back, I cannot believe I was kind of the one vote, even the one vote that really got Russell out of the game so early. Even though we decided as a tribe, my vote could have decided either way. That was pretty big for me. I pretty much thought I had convinced Russell on his side. That was a neat experience for me."
"The social game was pretty easy just because I was surrounded with such incredibly great people. Like I said, by the second game, I was like, 'These people are going to be friends for life.' The social game was easy. The survival game was miserable. I did not have fun. It wasn't fun for me. It rained every night except for maybe 3 nights. You're not just in the rain where you can go and get in the shelter. You're laying in bed, head to toe drenched, and you cannot get out of it. You wake up in the morning and you take your clothes off and wring them out, and you cannot get dry, because there's no fire. The Survivor part was miserable. It wasn't fun at all. The toughest part - all that physically was tough, but the toughest part for me was I missed my girls terribly. I cried every day. I've been away from my girls for periods of time just because of my profession, but the fact that I had no contact with them, I'm always thinking are they OK, what's going on at home, are they hurt. As a mother, you have no idea what's going on at home, and that part of surviving was toughest for me. I cried every day. I cried every night. It was terrible."
"My downfall in the game, looking back now - I think I was too nice. We went into the merge with less numbers, period, and all the Zapatera just got voted out one at a time. I was expecting to be the last Zapatera, and I think - we're all out of the game now - if I wasn't so nice, that probably would have kept me in the game further. I think I was a threat. I approached the girls at one time and was like, hey, don't let Rob go home with a million dollars, you guys, I would love to see any of you win. If you're planning on a female merge, and you need a vote, I'm here. I think Rob might have got word of that. I think I just had the 'nice' threat. That's all I can think of."
"The little, simple stuff. A glass of icewater. Stuff that we take for granted. I'm hoping I won't ever take that for granted, ever. I actually made a a list of how I'm gonna change my life, what I'm taking home, and in a month from now I don't wanna forget. I don't wanna forget how appreciative and grateful I am. Every few weeks I'm gonna take that list out and read what I took home from Survivor, and hopefully that will keep me in a simple life and much more grateful, and I'll be able to express my gratefulness to my friends and family."
"I'm definitely going home a different person. Since being off the show I have written letters to my friends and to my family, and to my mom. I'm 50 years old and I've never really told my mom how I feel about her. Now that I'm out of the game I'm just so grateful for everything. I wrote her a letter here at Ponderosa thanking her for a great childhood. She was a single mother of 4. Now that I've had so much time to reflect, I go, 'Wow." She was a single mother of 4, and all us kids came out great. To finish the note, I signed off and said, 'I have a reputation for being one tough chick, and now I can see I got that from you, Mom. I love you.' She's gonna be...I've never told her stuff like that. She's gonna be blown away. It's a neat feeling to be able to express it."