Secret Scene: Kourtney
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"I'm doing this for my kid, and for money. I have a lot of things I'd like to square away in real life, and this is an opportunity of a lifetime. I"m sure that's so cliche, but it kind of is. I'm at this point where what do I have to lose? I'm at a point in my life where I need to change something. This is not what I was expecting, but when the opportunity arose, oh God, I would regret not doing it. At the stake of my reputation, but like I said, I don't care what anybody thinks. But yeah, I'm out here so I can square away some financial things for me and some members of my family. That's what I hope to do. And I want to fly helicopters. I can do that with this. That's a big thing."
Kourtney volunteers to kill a chicken for her tribe.
<day 2>
<After various people spot chickens, Chelsea grabs them>
Kourtney (solo): Chelsea grabbed two chickens. That's awesome. I draw so much inspiration from her. It gives me inspiration to do more.
<when the ladies debate over who should kill the chicken, Kourtney says they should just cut its head off>
Kourtney (voiceover as Monica and Kourtney walk off with chicken and machete): The girls decided they needed a chicken sooner than later. Nobody wanted to kill it. So I basically just decided, we need to get this done.
<various people nervously watch Kourtney, then applaud her after she beheads the chicken>
Kourtney: I'm shaking.
<Monica encourages and hugs her>
Kourtney (solo): I feel valuable, providing for my tribe, because I felt like I stepped up to something not everybody's gonna wanna do.
Monica: Now we gotta pluck him. We gotta figure out how to get all the guts out.
<later, Monica is in the water, trying to degut the chicken; Kourtney tries to give a suggestion>
Kourtney (solo): I'll be pretty upset if they screw it up, since I had to kill the damn thing. But that's OK. Instead of voting people off, I'll just use the handy axe, and that way I won't feel bad about voting people off. Cannibalism. It's gonna happen. If somebody gets on my nerves, and I'm thirsty, I'm hungry, and I hear human flesh is like really sweet. And we're getting to that point.
<Kourtney watches as Christine says the chicken isn't done and they should stick it over the fire>
Not the Standard Soccer Mom
Kourtney is a motorcycle mechanic who hopes to do well in Survivor for her and her son.
"I'm a motorcycle mechanic. We work mostly on vintage Japanese motorcycles. You don't want to spread yourself too thin or else you're not gonna make any money. We don't make enough money as it is. Probably one of my lowest paying jobs, but the most gratifying for me, for sure."
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"My job is constant problem-solving. Even if it's a really simple job, like take these cars and strip them, you always find something wrong, there's always an obstacle thrown in your way, especially working on old bikes, you don't always have the resources available. So I think coming out here, that will help me because you really are forced to think outside of what you normally want to. There is a very rigid and logical basis of how you have to approach a problem, but you have to think outside the box with that type of work. Here, I think you really do. You have to get really creative with your surroundings. I think that's where I'll be comfortable, and find my niche, I guess."
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"People do judge me because of my tattoos, but if I worried about what people thought of me, I wouldn't get out of bed in the morning."
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"I didn't think tattoos would get me a lot of attention, at first, because when I see people with tattoos, I don't go up to them and go <puts on 'dumb' voice>, 'What's that for? What's that?' It's one of those things you kind of admire from afar. People will blatantly come up to you and be like, 'Why'd you get that?' And I'm like, 'Well...'"
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"Basically, yeah. Most of my tattoos are kind of, I got them for sad reasons. They marked a certain point in my life. It's a lot of unwanted attention. I got them for myself, not for other people. I guess other people feel like they have to say something."
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"I am nervous about the pace things move in this game. I've watched previous shows, and people form an immediate alliance. I'm thinking, well, you gotta feel everybody out. But you have to do everything quick quick quick. You have to hope the person you kind of hook up with, if you do, is gonna kinda me as solid as you are, until they don't need you or you don't need them. I am intimidated by that. It's gonna be like high school times a thousand. But it's kind of relieving to know it's a game."
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"You can kind of expect certain things from people, and you can certain things you wouldn't normally do in real life. It's a game where everyone is working towards a similar goal, and hopefully no one takes a lot of things personally. At least I won't. I hope not. I don't know. Once I'm emaciated, and hungry, and exhausted, I might be like, 'I CAN"T BELIEVE...' We'll see."
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"I'm not the standard soccer mom at all. Never. Ever."
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"I'd like to think my kid thinks I'm a cool mom. He tells me that a lot. It's pretty nice. I remember the first time he said, 'Mom, I love you.' That was really sweet. The other day, he told me I was the most beautifulest mom in town, and even prettier than one of the girls in his class. I was like, oh, that's so cute. But yeah, we shoot zombies together, I tell him stories, we wrestle, we do a lot of fun stuff together. We like to swim together."
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"Those are my best memories of my kid. He's a lot of fun."
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"I'm doing this for my kid, and for money. I have a lot of things I'd like to square away in real life, and this is an opportunity of a lifetime. I"m sure that's so cliche, but it kind of is. I'm at this point where what do I have to lose? I'm at a point in my life where I need to change something. This is not what I was expecting, but when the opportunity arose, oh God, I would regret not doing it. At the stake of my reputation, but like I said, I don't care what anybody thinks. But yeah, I'm out here so I can square away some financial things for me and some members of my family. That's what I hope to do. And I want to fly helicopters. I can do that with this. That's a big thing."
Kourtney the Day After
Kourtney reflects on her time in the game the day after she exits Survivor.
"My experience in the game of Survivor was...different."
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"It was 3 days. It was hot and sweaty and chaotic, and I didn't know what was going on half the time. I just remember really wanting to prove myself, and I remember being afraid of the challenge, and being curious about the guys but not wanting to deal with them, because that seemed premature."
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"Being in an all-girl tribe was really intimidating. Girls intimidate me. That was kind of revisiting my adolescence. It was different. I was kind of looking at it as something I could dive headfirst into, because everything I do is ridiculous and I don't think about it before I do it, I just do it. Coming on Survivor was one of those things. It's now or never, I'm gonna do it."
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"My friends and family, if they watch the one episode, they're gonna laugh at me for sure. For sure. They'll probably feel bad I hurt myself, but I think I'm going to be the brunt of a joke for many moons to come. But that's OK. I'm willing to take on that responsibility. I know my Mom's gonna love it, because she used to call me Grace, because I'm so clumsy. Then I break my arm..."
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"The social part of the game was the hardest for me. Just because immediately - I guess there were so many unknowns with the social aspect of the game, and it was so soon, and I knew things were going on, but I wasn't a part of those things. I had to sort of draw my own conclusions and read people. One thing that was easy for me to read situations, non-verbal communication between people."
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"But immersing myself in it was tricky. I was able to, when something seemed a little difficult for me, I was able to, oh, well I have some time, I'm gonna bide my time, I'm gonna weave these palm fronds, I'm gonna do things around camp. To me, the survival part of it came so easily, because I'm so fascinated with going back to basics anyway. I've romanticized going off the grid, and growing my own food, and slaughtering my own chickens and stuff. I kind of got to see what that might be like. I liked it."
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"My best moment on Survivor, aside from the catastrophe, was...it sounds awful, but when I killed the chicken, I guess. I'd never done anything like that before, and I kind of felt like I wanted to take that burden off Monica. I know she felt like no one else was gonna do it, so she had to do it. I could see on her face that she didn't want to do it. I felt kind of brave. I'm sure it's no big thing, but I'm a city girl, so that's a big thing for me. I really wanted to know what it's like to appreciate the meat I'm eating. Going through that, being such an animal lover that I am, that was my big moment, probably, I think. The only other thing I did was weave palm fronds. I tried to help with the shelter, but it was beyond that; everyone was too chaotic and disorganized. I feel like my moment to actually contribute was probably helping provide dinner that night."
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"I do think I have the mental and physical capacity to make it to day 39, and I really, really wanted to see what that would be like. I wanted to fight hard to get there, but, as fate should have it, it happened."
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"I need to get into flight training. That's one of my major goals. I want to fly helicopters. When I get home, I'm going to enroll in school, get a second job, find a good place - I'm looking to buy some property, and try to move on with my life. This has been like a really nice vacation."
