Now on to better things..... I want to thank you all for really giving me a ride during this period. I was prepared when I went to the Amazon because I knew exactly where it was going to be. (Some day I will explain the water baloons.) Also it was fun to read what everybody else was going through when preparing for the semi-final interviews, thanks to Wezzie. I will not be able to go into that or any other production thing ---- Sorry! It was also great to see the spoiler stuff. Of course I wanted to get on the boards -- but you know contract and all.
I hope you all realize that I am just a regular person and if you hated me, you hated the character because truthfully that is not a true representation of who we all are. (Ok I am an overbearing control freak who is on occasion arrogant, but cripes I am a prosecutor and I deal with victims and the nasties of this world) I can remember from season 1, sitting in front of the tv, yelling at the screen when Richard Hatch kept getting further and further in the game. He is a nice guy by the way. But you don't really get that it is unbelievably difficult out there, that will never come across the waves. I didn't, till I went. Still, I would have probably have made fun of my sorry butt as well if I was posting on the boards. For the record, I am not a feminazi! (Husband and two boys, all my love in this world goes to them) I played a game where it was boys against the girls and I had fun with the theme, nothing more. Ok enough complaining because I realize that I put myself out in the public eye and subjected myself to the critisizm of the sucksters, sheesh quite a humbling experience, but I am guessing my ego could have used the deflating. The deena photoshop was one of the funniest darn things I saw. Yes, I have the ability to laugh at myself as do everyone of my collegues -- nice to come to work with your head on a dog photo on your door.
So I say even with all you critics out there and the starvation (bonus for me lost 30 pounds) I would do it again. I have made lasting friendships. Of the two that were left, Jenna deserved to win. Jenna is more dimensional than you all think and I value the friendship I have made with her. But for me it came down to which person played the game the best. However, if it had been Rob, my vote would have been for him, no question.
I will do my best to answer any questions you may have but it will be limited, no doubt (contract thing). But I will say, you sucksters really are the bomb and I have enjoyed lurking and now hope to post with regularity.
With love to all you sucksters!